Sometimes even the slightest gesture does not go unnoticed.
#patriotism #usa
Patriotism Out An Old Dirt Road
Author: Jill L. Ware
Hello! I am a lot of things. First and foremost, I am me. Like it or leave it I believe God made me just as I am. That I need to go through these trials and tribulation to become who it is I am meant to be. does it suck? yes it does. I have two sons and three granddaughter and one on the way. I've been diagnosed with bipolar and borderline personality disorder for several years. This is a way to let my words out, get them out of my head. You are not alone in your struggle with these diseases, it's exhausting trying to be normal. Or what we percieve as normal.
There is beauty in even the darkest places!
#seethelight #depression
Change The Thought
I tell people like me with mental illness to change the thought all the time. This last episode, even though I knew I wasn’t thinking correctly, I couldn’t get out of my head. I would convince myself that I was being normal. Just because I wanted to do something so badly didn’t make it wrong. But all it took was one message from an old friend (I thought) to blow my world up all over again. Just like 30 years ago. People that say or do mean things to you on purpose are not your friends. Unfortunately, when I have these diagnoses which make me question wether they were mean or if I just perceived them as being mean because of my mood disorder. Nope he was mean as could be. Knew it would hurt me. I let the last time he did this affect me MANY years. I will not do that this time. I’m trying to convince myself I am stronger now than I was then. I have all these people that love me. It’s the people pleaser in me, every one must love me. #hurtmenomore
#bipolar #borderline #anxiety
This is why I strive to be better mentally
I don’t want my granddaughters to see the crazy monster in me that their father’s did growing up. #lovemygranddaughters
Social Distancing Done Right!
While at our cabin this last week this was a sight to see. And I hear some states were not allowing people to even buy worms for fishing. Attention: Hot dogs are a necessity and the fish love them. #fishingdoneright #quarantine #anxiety #bipolar
The Life Of A Dog!
It must be nice to bask in the sun without a care in the world. Our Father says, “ Cast our worries upon him.”. It is that simple! Pray for his guidance in our daily lives. I’ve tried this many times. The thing is when you do that, opposition comes at us from all sides. I admit that always cave and let my fear get the best of me.
#doglover #borderlinepersonalitydisorder # depression #anxiety
Quiet Please
Quiet Please
I wish I could slow down, take a break.
I thought it would be different at the lake.
But my mind just does not stop,
My brain is full, about to pop.
What was it I forgot to do,
I’m sorry if I yelled at you.
Straighten the rug please,
Hurry before someone sees.
Who cares if it’s not straight,
Hurry before it’s to late,
I hate that I am manic,
But it isn’t going to make me panic.
Don’t worry it’s not my first episode,
It ‘ll be better after I explode.
Just pray you aren’t the one in my path,
Or likely it will be you that catches my wrath
I am nice as most of you see,
But it’s not all fun to be me.
I struggle to keep my head straight,
Sometimes feeling I never left the gate.
Now my brain isn’t so wired,
In matter of fact I am quite tired.
I’ll pray for tomorrow to be a better day,
So off to bed I am on my way.
Jill L. Ware
Take Action
Take Action
I’m an older version of who I was at seventeen.
Trying to forget where I’ve been and what I’ve seen.
Finding joy to the left and to the right.
To these old eyes is quite a sight.
Sticks and stones will break your bones.
And words will destroy you.
Fantasize, dream, take action.
Get going while you have traction.
You are what holds you back,
Self esteem you lack.
It was taken away,
It will return one day.
Surround yourself with good,
Life will be better than you ever thought it could.
Smile, laugh, cry and live,
You have more than you will ever know to give.
Jill L. Ware
#depression #anxiety #Borderlinepersonalitydisorder #bipolar
Quarantine
Quarantine
The majority of our country is quarantined,
From a virus called COVID-19.
Many of us afraid, as we should be.
Restrictions have been made, now we wait and see.
This does not only affect me,
For thousands of deaths there will be.
Please tell family and friends to stay away,
They can come visit another day.
Pray that our wait isn’t long,
And that the statistics are wrong.
When this finally ends,
Will normal ever be again?
#quarantine #bipolar #borderlinepersonality
I See
I See
A deer grazing as I pass by,
A Majestic bird soaring in the sky.
The waves wash upon the shore,
The mighty elm next door.
A vibrant cardinal perched in a tree,
The dolphin as it crosses the sea.
A mountain off in the distance,
The Rockies for instance.
The innocent smile of a baby,
The beauty in every Lady.
The strength and honor of man,
Imagine, see all that I can. Believe there is a God.
And that he could end us with a nod.
See all that I see.
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