After a very hot hike grandpa brought us to the pool to cool down. He really does spoil us girls.
Tag: grandkids
Johnson Shut In’s
I’m a bit out of shape for this. Enjoyed our time. But my RA has been a bit flared since this trip.
Elephant Rock State Park
Anaya and grandma and grandpa had a great time. My butt cheeks sure did feel the burn from all that climbing.
Granddaughters
What a week it has been. I had my granddaughters most of the week. The four year old has been not feeling well. Apparently her dad told her the other day that she was being rude. So now when we say anything she doesn’t like we are being rude. Children. The six year old I splashed in the pool and she called me a chubby bitch. So, now I’m wondering who she heard call me a fat bitch. She knows fat is a bad word. My mom said that’s just kids she didn’t hear anyone say that about you. I can’t help but wonder. I know Anaya loves me, she is only four. And Adalyn is my buddy. I don’t think she will do it again. It just slipped out! Hmmm! A grandmothers love for her grandchildren is unfaltering!
I could be so much worse
As I sit here getting my chemo treatment, I watch and listen to those around me. I am blessed. There are so many in pain and sick from their treatments. Over the years I see patients come and go. Some are now cancer free others didn’t beat their disease. I really appreciate the life God has given me. The beautiful friends and family that I’ve been blessed to have in my life. Thankful that these treatments are helping my RA remain under control. I can be more active with my grandkids than I was able to be with my sons. I know there may come a day when this treatment no longer works for me, so until then I will enjoy my family and live my life to it’s fullest.
What a Blessed woman I Am
This Mother’s Day was great. It’s the first time in years we all got together in one place. As a person with BPD I have had bad behaviors or toxic marriages that have interfered with my relationships with my children and grandchildren. Knock on wood. My behavior is better, my husband and best friend is amazing. I couldn’t ask for a better life.
It’s A Boy!
Mother’s Day Fun
My Sons, daughter in laws and granddaughters 
My oldest son 
My bestie for 34 years with my youngest granddaughter 
My sisters man 
Friends 
Nephew 
My sidekick 
So many emotions 
Friends 
My man 
Granddaughters 
Miss bossy 
So gets son and his wife 
Rosie loves her Sissy
I haven’t blogged for a little while. What happens is when I let go of the hurt and pain and anger I can write. But when I’m hurt or angry I have a hard time getting my focus back. I let the stupidest things affect my thoughts. Someone I hadn’t seen in several years told me they had no desire to see or talk to me. Why would I let that affect me? I hadn’t seen or talked to him in 13 years. But knowing that someone you once loved despises you so much that that can be that hurtful to you is totally insane. But that I let it mess my head up is what’s insane. Especially when I have all of these beautiful people in my life. They know me more than anyone and continue to love me daily. #imtogoodforhim #bpd #family
This is why I strive to be better mentally
I don’t want my granddaughters to see the crazy monster in me that their father’s did growing up. #lovemygranddaughters
Our Roses Were Yellow 
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